Happy Babbling even if Mercury Retrograde is in Cancer!!
Updated: June 26, 2013
Happy Babbling even if it is Mercury Retrograde!
As you know dear tribe of mine, my enforced cocooning is still going on this summer no matter how much I want to crash through the wall of it announcing “ I’m Back!- only better and with WINGS to boot and turbo charged and READY TO TAKE ON THE WORLD!”
Nope that image lasts for maybe a minute or two before I succumb to the other spectacular characters in my continuous narrative that seem to wake up before me waiting at the end of my bed going tsk tsk tsk… wagging their fingers, whispering about what an incredible pompous ass and failure I really am, that all my clients that I have been serving this past year in the capacity of advisory will simultaneously decide I am a waste of time and full of S#@T, etc., and I will be pushing the proverbial cart eating dog food that is decidedly not vegan. ARGH!
Yes kiddos I too have a committee that gets active when mercury goes retrograde and Chicken Little takes the front seat on my bus. Actually my time out was perfectly timed since the theme of this mercury retrograde is in Cancer, my sign, is all about contemplating what is authentic in your “emotional home”.
Now the best part of all this is I have a great relationship with a Higher Power that I turn to pretty quick, say, after no more than 10 minutes contemplating which voice I’d prefer listening to, and settling on something that is much more benevolent and friendly!
The choice we all have is who we are going to listen to.
So – when Fear does a Matrix split where all the weird Mr Smith men multiply and you get whacked from all sides, I take the “blue pill” in the form of mindful prayer and surrender that brings me back to the reality that in this moment God/ Goddess/ Higher Power/ Fred/ Jesus/ Buddha will not give me anything I can’t handle in any given day.
It’s amazing to imagine all those pesky characters going to sleep just like that, all curled up, tired of their policing duties and allowing themselves to be relaxed and accepted by Love. Love the part of you that is afraid and miracles happen.
This is when I wonder if my Higher Power loves me as much as I love my dogs and when I consider that. I am very sure that I’m truly here for a purpose. I am free, and empty to be filled. Whatever works right?
The thing is it does work. All of us have narratives that can creep up on us when we enter unfamiliar territory. Transformation is rarely accompanied by hoops and hollers and silly smiles and shouts of “ bring it on”! Yes! Totally deconstruct my life and strip me of everything familiar and bring me into stillness for me to look at myself ,and how I need to change in order to be more useful to a Higher Purpose. Don’t tell me anything about where I’m going either. Nope just let me stew in it for a while.
Blind folded on a scaffold with a shovel?
Disappointing people and letting them go?
Saying no in fifteen languages?
Letting go attachment even if you get an inspired IDEA??
Letting go some more
Stop trying to be productive and smell some roses?
Stop pretending you decided to evolve?
In fact it is.
There is nothing more liberating than blind faith and listening to your Higher Power as the primary voice in your personal narrative. These next few weeks should show all of us where our emotional home is and what voice brings us into a sense of comfort, and safety, familiarity and love. Of course it’s a time of cleaning that house too especially if we have old out dated relationships inside us (and actual ones!) that no longer serve our lives moving forward.
The loony side of Cancer is also about a sense of humor.
We must also take time to laugh at ourselves, not take life personally, and have fun!
So what that everything you’ve let go of has your claw marks all over it.
You let go right?
That’s what counts!
“With Mercury retrograde in Cancer, this is an excellent period for getting in touch with what nurtures us and feeds our spirits, as well as our instincts. Emotional communication is not as valued as more rational approaches in our society, and now is the time to explore our more intimate, sympathetic, and emotional nature and how these affect our decision-making processes.” Quote from Café astrology.com
So.. how are you getting in touch with what’s nurturing for you and better still what are you doing about it?
What are you holding on to out of familiarity, and what needs to replace it for you to feel good?
Do you wake up with unruly emotions some days? How do you get in touch with your Higher Power? What happens then?
Love to hear your thoughts as we enter Mercury retrograde in Cancer.
ps if you want to learn more about this retrograde stuff go see Robert Ohotto, Debra Silverman, or Maya White- my favorite 3 wise astrologers that can really help you go deep about all this stuff in the stars.