Happy Babbling even if Mercury Retrograde is in Cancer!!
Updated: June 26, 2013
Happy Babbling even if it is Mercury Retrograde!
As you know dear tribe of mine, my enforced cocooning is still going on this summer no matter how much I want to crash through the wall of it announcing “ I’m Back!- only better and with WINGS to boot and turbo charged and READY TO TAKE ON THE WORLD!”
Nope that image lasts for maybe a minute or two before I succumb to the other spectacular characters in my continuous narrative that seem to wake up before me waiting at the end of my bed going tsk tsk tsk… wagging their fingers, whispering about what an incredible pompous ass and failure I really am, that all my clients that I have been serving this past year in the capacity of advisory will simultaneously decide I am a waste of time and full of S#@T, etc., and I will be pushing the proverbial cart eating dog food that is decidedly not vegan. ARGH!
Yes kiddos I too have a committee that gets active when mercury goes retrograde and Chicken Little takes the front seat on my bus. Actually my time out was perfectly timed since the theme of this mercury retrograde is in Cancer, my sign, is all about contemplating what is authentic in your “emotional home”.
Now the best part of all this is I have a great relationship with a Higher Power that I turn to pretty quick, say, after no more than 10 minutes contemplating which voice I’d prefer listening to, and settling on something that is much more benevolent and friendly!
The choice we all have is who we are going to listen to.
So – when Fear does a Matrix split where all the weird Mr Smith men multiply and you get whacked from all sides, I take the “blue pill” in the form of mindful prayer and surrender that brings me back to the reality that in this moment God/ Goddess/ Higher Power/ Fred/ Jesus/ Buddha will not give me anything I can’t handle in any given day.
It’s amazing to imagine all those pesky characters going to sleep just like that, all curled up, tired of their policing duties and allowing themselves to be relaxed and accepted by Love. Love the part of you that is afraid and miracles happen.
This is when I wonder if my Higher Power loves me as much as I love my dogs and when I consider that. I am very sure that I’m truly here for a purpose. I am free, and empty to be filled. Whatever works right?
The thing is it does work. All of us have narratives that can creep up on us when we enter unfamiliar territory. Transformation is rarely accompanied by hoops and hollers and silly smiles and shouts of “ bring it on”! Yes! Totally deconstruct my life and strip me of everything familiar and bring me into stillness for me to look at myself ,and how I need to change in order to be more useful to a Higher Purpose. Don’t tell me anything about where I’m going either. Nope just let me stew in it for a while.
Blind folded on a scaffold with a shovel?
Check.
Disappointing people and letting them go?
Check
Saying no in fifteen languages?
Check
Letting go attachment even if you get an inspired IDEA??
Check
Letting go some more
Check
Stop trying to be productive and smell some roses?
Check
Stop pretending you decided to evolve?
Check.
NO probs!
Awesome right?
In fact it is.
There is nothing more liberating than blind faith and listening to your Higher Power as the primary voice in your personal narrative. These next few weeks should show all of us where our emotional home is and what voice brings us into a sense of comfort, and safety, familiarity and love. Of course it’s a time of cleaning that house too especially if we have old out dated relationships inside us (and actual ones!) that no longer serve our lives moving forward.
The loony side of Cancer is also about a sense of humor.
We must also take time to laugh at ourselves, not take life personally, and have fun!
So what that everything you’ve let go of has your claw marks all over it.
You let go right?
That’s what counts!
“With Mercury retrograde in Cancer, this is an excellent period for getting in touch with what nurtures us and feeds our spirits, as well as our instincts. Emotional communication is not as valued as more rational approaches in our society, and now is the time to explore our more intimate, sympathetic, and emotional nature and how these affect our decision-making processes.” Quote from Café astrology.com
So.. how are you getting in touch with what’s nurturing for you and better still what are you doing about it?
What are you holding on to out of familiarity, and what needs to replace it for you to feel good?
Do you wake up with unruly emotions some days? How do you get in touch with your Higher Power? What happens then?
Love to hear your thoughts as we enter Mercury retrograde in Cancer.
Founder, CEO
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ps if you want to learn more about this retrograde stuff go see Robert Ohotto, Debra Silverman, or Maya White- my favorite 3 wise astrologers that can really help you go deep about all this stuff in the stars.
Mercury retrograde in Cancer…I lie in my bed, sick with cold, contemplating my crumbling relationship. Again. For the millionth time in the last year. I am not nurtured. I am ignored. I am taken for granted. I love this man. What the heck is my problem?! If I were my own friend, I’d tell myself to move on already. We will not be together during this retrograde period. I want to understand why I hang on to a relationship that is not growing together but apart. I vacillate between redefining what a love relationship is and berating myself for even looking at redefining when I know that what I’m in now is not nurturing. I keep trying to find a way around it apparently. I have to stay open for signs and insights these next few weeks. I chose Wide Open this morning as my daily card. This Under the Weather Crab is having a hard time staying wide open. I just want to stay in my shell until this passes. It’s too hard!
when we surrender everything changes.. that is what this merc retrograde period is for. Find your joy, fins what love needs to be for you. Don’t accept anything less.. stay Wide Open to what your HIgher Power wants… be still and listen… oxoxxo
Thanks for this newsletter and your comment about letting go and finding joy Colette. Just recently my dad passed away and I am having difficultly letting go and finding my joyous self again. Knowing that it is a great time to do both gives me confidence in the universe and myself again. Thanks for your words of wisdom 🙂
I always try to follow you my dear Collette. You stay the course and give so much to others. And yes, a Mercury Retrograde period is a time to reassess, regroup and rethink where you want to be. These are very challenging times on our planet what with Uranus square Pluto, retrogrades and a Water Snake year. In the Chinese year it is all about staying in your integrity and “walking your talk”. I am a Gemini with Leo Rising and Pisces Moon always being social with my friends and looking at this world as a huge stage to play on. As I was reading the other comments it struck me how similar and yet how very individual are the issues all of us are dealing with. I left a long standing verbally abusive relationship that kept escalating and I had no idea what to do with it except ask the individual to stop. It fell on deaf ears so I packed up my belongings and moved into a small second home I had hung on to in a climate I would rather not live in year round. (Too hot in the summers) But realizing I needed to get back my personal power and align myself with my Higher Power was a great motivator. I am blessed with a great support system of soul sisters and training in astrology and Feng Shui/energy to help me through it all. I implore your followers and fellow believers to stay the course, don’t ever sell yourself short and know that you are here at this time to serve a purpose for a higher good. It is about getting through the dailing grind that can trip us up. And do not settle for less than you deserve, no matter what it takes to get there! Consy M
love this!
Hey, Hey Ronda<
You could have written these words from inside my head! I don't have a cold, but I am right where you are. Again.
I wonder how I have created failed relationship so many times. I keep remembering to let go each time frustration takes over. It seems that I can't make my man love me the way I need so why keep struggling? He will not change, but I can change my way of relating to him so that I am free. This also sets him free from never fulfilling my expectations.
I pulled The Mystery card after reading your comment, reminding me to be humble and go deeper into my trust that I am NOT going BACKWARDS, but continuing to expand and become more loving and conscious as my true self, whether I am loved romantically or not.
Thank you for letting me know I'm not the only one losing my mind!
Thank you too!
Oh Colette…I thought I was doing good on the right track..then all of a sudden out of no were my son hits me with a ?..It caught me off guard…So know what do I do? .so I went not steps but feet backwards…I too am a cancer…you are not a let down..You are my inspiration ..I panic when I don’t see the card you draw every morning ..That’s what I look for…I try and pray before I hit the floor every Mornin ..an patiently await for you to get on board..lol…Thank you , for everything you do…Much Love & Respect!! God Be with us all….
o HOney that’s the way it is for all of us… 4 steps forward 2 steps back its the Transformation Cha CHa !! That’s why I share my laundry too so we do it together !!! Hang in there lil crab.. and keep your spirits up. oxoxoxo
Hey Colette, Mercury is my ruler…. when does the retrograde end so I can plan the time nurturing myself through it!
Love Mel.
I am new to twitter and I just finished reading and taking notes about the Mercury Retrograde. I really love your article. It really made me think about what I am holding on to out of familiarity and what needs to replace it? It’s my Home and my Attitude. I have been complaining about the neighbors noise and barking dogs, saying what’s wrong with this House, and that I want to move. {Sigh} Now I am facing moving within 30 days and I suddenly feel attached to this House, all the memories, all the landscape improvements we made, the relationships with the neighbors…this is Home, dogs, noise and all. I feel so insecure and I am worried about the impact on my childrens lives, even my Dog Chacho; everything familiar feels like it s being stripped away. Uncertanty,fear,{ fear of the unknown}, sorrow, grief, internal anger, blame are all surfacing. I need to let it all go…and replace it with Courage and Faith, Trusting and Knowing that God has a plan for us, that everything will work out, Being Loving and Laughing, being Grateful for everything both positive & negative and listening to the quiet whispers in my soul. It’s a very challenging time in my life and I have to turn it around and put my affairs in God’s Hands and Trust that this is all happening for our higher purpose. I really feel the need to sit down with my Husband and write down what we specifically want in our New House and then do a Meditation and call it to us. I am excited now thinking about moving and I have a more positive outlook and I was able to shift gears. There is a silver linning although I don’t see it yet. I am thankful for your Article, it helped me so much ~ Love Julia
For me it is not a process of letting go, but a time to hold on and treasure the people I am so grateful to have. Ronda, I have been where you are, twice in my life. I remember clearly the inner turmoil and guilt and pain. But now I am in my soul mate relationship. And it was only a year ago that I chose to dive off the cliff in blind faith for the second time. Thank you for posting your story. I needed a reminder of how lucky I am and where I have been. And I must say this, you deserve love.
So love is my focus for the month. I will not worry about money or business because I have someone who would love me through any success or failure. I have a family that brings me more joy than any financial gain ever could.
This was a good post Colette. Thank you 🙂
Thank you Jennifer.
Thank you so much for sharing…glad to know it’s not just me! I so appreciate the snarkiness. 🙂
This is a particularly “strong” retrograde indeed. Perhaps it so, for we Cancerians. In one day I was robbed…lost all my “stuff”…discovered my boyfriends lack of fidelity….and was faced with the realization that my employer did not have my back. It was a good day! Apparently didn’t take the subtle hints along the way.
I turn 50 next week, and reflect with both gratitude and snarkiness, the changes presented in this Mercury in Retrograde in Cancer.
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LOL…I have great faith that all of our technology works like a charm through mercury retrograde…My companies are also spiritual beings and are loved and work with as such…My chief technical officer harumphs when I inform him double up the alarms as its that time again….But he believes me now after years of fun stuff when from seemingly no where things we don’t like occur with our systems…Our data center got hit with some network latency yesterday the 25th that had people cratching their heads going huh… and I laughed…MR in action friends….Faith and love, kindness and generosity…my themes always and in particular with MR…Patience…ah Patience……Enjoy it all…love always…xo
I am an Aries! This retrograde is really showing me how to respect myself in relationships. I am with a man right now, and something happened where i was so treated properly. I see the proper love there for me, and I will not settle… It is there for me and all of us here on this blog.. Let the love come to you, we are all extensions, now it is time to receive truly what we deserve.. blessings
My confession, of sorts, is a bit mangled — and long. I not only am a Cancer; I am a Cancer/Leo, born on the cusp. Most days I don’t know for sure who I’m supposed to be. I love and embrace both parts some times – other times, not so much! Transition and transformation have been my working agenda for nearly 4 years now. I lost my husband unexpectedly in Sept 2009. Instant transition that I never envisioned, torturous transformation that I never imagined, and seemingly more backward steps than forward. I promised myself from that moment on I would follow my heart no matter where I was lead. But I struggle with fulfilling that promise to myself – I question whether it’s me “talking” in those quiet moments, or my guides, or my guilt. I feel so guilty for wanting love in my life again; I ache for someone to hug. I’ll be 56 next month and I don’t want to be by myself anymore. Last month I quit my job of 6 months (first time I had worked in over 12 years). I have to put my house on the market or I will be out of money in about a year. And in the past 2 weeks I’ve come to realize that I am not afraid of what comes next. I don’t have any idea where I will be or what I will do. I’m just tired of being afraid so I’m not going to be that anymore. I’m ready to be more than I am now. I’m ready to be joyous and peaceful and loving and purposeful – and loved by someone other than my family…
As I read through this blog, I am struck by the complete honesty of the words which resonate from the heart of each and every soul. While I am fortunate to be on the other side of the mountain at this moment, I realize there will always be another mountain to climb and I have been in each one of your shoes at some point in my life.
I can feel the emotions in each word from those of you that are suffering and I hear from the Divine that in order to grow and learn and to be compassionate to others, we ourselves must experience that which we are to teach.
It is obvious that You are all Master teachers and lightworkers, whether you realize it now or not. You will come to realize it soon enough. Open yourselves up to the lessons and acknowledge that you have learned this lesson in your life and find that place of gratitude in your heart for having had the opportunity to experience this situation you are grieving over, for you did sign on for this, and the energies around this will more easily dissipate from a place of grattitude. This will help you find that place of peace, the place your soul desires to reside in most of all.
It is my belief that those of us who agreed to incarnate on the earth at this time agreed to experience what is being experienced, as difficult as that may be to fathom. We were not promised an easy life for in order to reach others through the heart we must have compassion and love and understanding.
Our lives were not meant to be lived while sitting on a sofa with all of our possessions safely tucked in around us and sometimes our world must be shaken up a bit in order for us to fully realize what is important to us. We are all on this journey together and it is together that we will come out on the other side.
It is time for us to realize that it is only by fulfilling our purpose that we will find the peace our heart so longingly desires and we find that purpose by following the signs. You will encounter doubt and fear and perhaps loose a few friends along the way who do not understand where you are going and that is OK-they signed on to follow a different path.
Be strong and be fearless!
One more thing, I believe that it is those souls who love us the most on the spiritual plane who agree to be the ones on the earth plane that help to teach us our greatest lessons.The souls which love us the most will hurt us the most while we are here. Our souls agreed to this and although we have free will, if we are lucky and things work out as planned, we learn and move on in this lifetime. There is perfect order and timing to everything we experience and when we “know” this we have faith.
Open up to Divine guidance and follow the signs posted along the way and trust your instincts and the path you are to follow will be illuminated.
Sometimesin order to “feel” better about a situation, a change in perspective is all that is needed-I refer to this as a shift and an opening up to possibilities. This is the real magic available to us if we are unafraid to open the door.
Peace and light to you on your journeys,
Rev Patricia, B Msc
Boy has it been a struggle for me financially and I tried to keep my faith these last 7 months and it was hard. I know they say that mercury in retrograde isn’t a good time to start new projects however I have to find work so that is not an option for me. I tried to keep calm as this waves of fear and worry have overtaken me and I decided to surrender more of my life to spirit. It’s been rocky as where I have days where I am completely faithless and days where I have hope. I recently did a nine day novena for St. Jude. For those of you who don’t know what novenas are it’s a 9 day prayer that must be said consistently and St. Jude is the patron saint of hopeless cases and brings miraculous intervention quickly. I did the first time but I was very very skeptical. Eventually I redid it because I was in a better place emotionally to try. So I asked for him to help me find work before the end of June if possible. In the previous months and weeks I have taken several exams for jobs. One was for social worker and I got on the list but not that high. I did however put down that I was interested in part time/temporary work but I didn’t remember if I had put that down or not. I just got an email today and the county contacted me to see if I was interested in part time work. I immediately jumped at the chance. I am hoping they call me soon to work. But I was doing a little bit of a happy dance and it’s before the end of June! Is it coincidence? Who knows. It was exactly what I wanted but I know spirit never gives us more than what we can handle and I think that perhaps spirit knows I cannot handle more than work 30 hrs a week. I am happy with that and can become full time in a year and half. So I am grateful and going to take when I can get. I just pray this goes smoothly despite mercury in retrograde. I won’t let it get me down! 😀
Me Gemini—-Me Mecury Gemini——–Me Moon Sadge———Me Rising Libra (thank the Higher Powers)——–Me Physically slow down 3 days ago———-Me Can’t Walk & Chew Gum——BUT——–
I can think clearly and my garden takes on even greater meaning as the plants do most of the talking! I want to cocoon because i must shut out the violent noise. I do not want to miss the omens and symbology in Mama Nature and wild animals crossing my path.
And this retrograde is about follow through. To pray the change—to feel what the change is——to say “I WILL DO” and then “DO IT”
I live with the spirit in me, and I believe in the Spirit—– in all, even when they have no idea what I am talking about or that I’m crazy for my Medicine Wheel and Moon Lodge.
Time to let go of the weakness that sucks the spirit out of me. Time to isolate myself so i may stay the path that breeds strength. The strength needed to make my way through the distractions of life and accept them for what they are. The strenghth that I may pray the change. To see it and walk towards it.
And what is the change I want? Surround myself with more like minded folk. Where to start? Why, in the cocoon, of course! Mecury retrograde—–oh, yeah and I want to be a yoga instructor. Now, that will really help propagate change and walk my talk.
I love the voices I read here. This is a great place to BE.
I really like what you said in this blog, Colette.
I’m an Aries, Virgo Rising,Sag Moon (& u called it on ur radio show when u said that I had a very ‘watery’ personality. (& u brought up astrology, so I just had to reply! I’ll just try & make it short.)
Really connect to what Diana said up there, & it is what I’ve been experiencing, as well.
This is a great place to BE. though there’s a lot of emotional turmoil.
One of my main points of interests this month, are Concentrating on ‘cleaning house’ & what ‘family’ means to me in a so many ways. Dealing with each emotion as it comes up can be difficult, especially if you’re feeling more than one at a time, during this period. Hats off, to your blogs & everything that you do. My daughter scattered your oracle cards everywhere, I still have your site! Thank you for everything that you do, once again. Just had to tell you that.
oxoxoxoo PS. quieting that “Goblin Speak” & “Chatter Box” on my list this month (probably for the rest of my life–thanks to You! Beautiful SOul! Us (Cancer Rising composites–my husband & I, & my daughter 1 & 1/2 yr old, r really feeling all of this, & are trying to work with these astrological transits as positively, as possible. Can hardly wait to do your ‘7 layers of Letting Go’ again! The 1st time I did it, on Valentine’s Day, I burned so much paper, with my white tapered candles in the bathroom burning all the way down into these beautiful, ooey-gooey shapes (that I still have in the b/room, makes me happy when I see it!), & anyway, thanks to you, & your inspirational self, so many lives will be FOREVER beautifully effected! U rule! Keep that beautiful head up. 🙂 Also, been checking out Robert Ohotto’s site, thanks for recommending those astrologers.
Thank you! Just what I needed to hear. I forgot about the 4 step forward, and 2 step back cha cha. I have never felt so blah. Telling myself I am crazy, because I live in fairy land. When I am going forward shit seems to fall. Trust is the word I see over and over. I can stand up now. Universe do you want to see what I am made of? I am Love. Bring it on. I am ready. Love you, Mary Louise
hahaha LOve that “growing a pair” in Fairyland.. LOVE cohones !!
Today in the stillness, I know I need to change. I must slow down and smell the roses, and just be. Letting go of attachment even if you get an inspired IDEA?? What does that mean? I do not have one, however. Letting go of attachment is at the top of my list. Then its getting over this feeling of sloth. Cleaning up the mess I make. Having blind faith that all my insights will come together, and make sense. Love you, Mary Louise
Yes, I am feeling Mercury too! I have just let go emotionally or so I thought to my current position in an operating room as an afternoon shift Boarding clerk/Secretary. I have been doing this for 10 years at this particular hospital and on the same shift. I applied for a new position in another department and have been waiting several weeks to hear something. I did get an interview. So my patience is being tested. I hope to be on days so that I can have more of a life and also start to really touch base with my inner spiritual life. I am a Reiki Master yet have not had time to start a practice. The shift I have been on is exhausting and busy, sometimes I get stuck on midinghts also when there is a call in. I am feeling very confused and anxious lately. I have to say I currently work with some very dishonest people who have screwed me over multiple times in this current department. I keep thinking I am ready for a change. But I am also scared. The other night when I got home from work I was cutting an Avacado and the knife slipped and I gave myself a nice puncture wound in the hand. I also went out to the backyard that night when I got home and placed my crystals and stones in the moonlight. That night that the moon was huge! While out there I tripped. So that night I was really out of balance. I do your oracle cards often and I am trying to stay positive. It is hard. Hope you have a Happy Fourth of July!
betrayal sucks but grace comes when we let go and accept, move on when we’re ready, and new amazing experiences come to us… then we carry on. It’s the nature of a full examined life yes? Some people just wallow in self pity and resentment and you, me and everyone else in this tribe know that we can’t stay there but its ok to feel all these things, to get perspective we have to start where we are, then take another step.. 4 forward 2 back… you’re not alone xooxoxooxox
ps courage is not the absence of fear.. its always about riskxooxox
Thank you Collette. You prompt us all to open up and listen and look. Our bodies are so amazing putting the brakes on when we won’t. Sending rays of glorious rainbows to you. My husband is a cancer. He has been trying to get a new job for 5 months now. His current job is in Madrid. I have been working with myself to maintain balance and supportive insight for him. He has possibilities that he has been working with for sometime but none have come into fruition yet. Thanks to your open sharing, I feel renewed energy to support him through this transformation opportunity. I have to continue to remind myself that this is an opportunity to recognize what has to go and what needs to be nurture. Blessings and Gratitude.
When Mercury goes retrograde, all my ideas for bringing my passion to life…sort of die. I come from the corporate executive world, and now, after nearly dying from the stress of it all…I have found what brings me passion….Life Coaching, Energy Healing, writing my book….I have a marketing background, tons of sales experience….speak five languages and on days like today….I doubt myself completely ….I lost all the titles and the money after the illness so now I work two jobs, but found my purpose…..so frigging confused…
chop wood carry water, get confused, chop wood carry water , have an epiphany, shop wood carry water, fall in love, chop wood carry water, get confused, chop wood.. all of us unravel and rebuild, find ourselves, unravel rebuild,.. HUG to you xooxox
This Mercury retrograde has me working away from what I know at the moment to be home. I have already turned my life completely upside down or right side up in the last 4 years. I am planning a trip out west once I finish my festival to look at new places to live. Over a year ago I sold all and move out of a state I had lived in for 25 years. I have moments of “I have failed”…as I look at the bank accounts realizing that creating amazing healing jewelry , doing energy sessions & painting is not paying the bills. I once had a life where I bought whatever I wanted, went where ever I wanted and yes did what ever I wanted. Got divorced because I didn’t want to live in lies. Relationships have not been my strong suit…being and Aquarian…with a Pisces moon. I can build walls faster than most and if that isn’t happening I can sabotage…oh the stories I can tell. So for comfort and nurturing I am going to be with a great friend…in a few weeks…while he is not ready for a relationship…we have been in each other’s lives for many years and lifetimes. There is comfort there…and then i will go and look out west…which seems to be the next move. When I do remember where I have been, what I have accomplished and that I am still here on this planet…I can usually turn things around…but then there are days…
Thank you to each and everyone of you and Collette…Thank you for sharing…your words bring comfort…
I am Sagittarius and I am an absolute mess. I feel like the word LOSER is stamped across my forehead. My life is in shambles. I have been out of work for over a year. I try to keep an upbeat attitude and try to tell myself things will get better and yet things go from bad to worse. How do I stay strong when I feel like there is nothing left in me? Collette, I admire you and your wisdom, but I am falling apart.
when we fall apart we get to be rebuilt from scratch. This too shall pass. hang in there. Being upbeat is highly overrated but being grateful for the teeniest things when we’re in agony – that is grace oxoxo
thank you for the words…”being Grateful for the teeniest things when we are in agony — that is grace.” thank you
I’m Sag too with Taurus rising gemini moon and mars in Leo. I’m right there with you sister. Been unemployed off and on (mostly off) for the past 2 years. I have the the roller coaster effect in full blown action. Some days I’m absolutely certain that Spirit loves me and is supporting me in learning whatever this is I’m learning and that it’s all going to be just fine. Other days I just want off the planet. My saggie horse wants to run while the bull and lion prefer to stand ground and fight and my beautiful Gemini moon wants to rationalize it all. The great thing about being in Colette’s tribe is that you have support even if it’s just a few written words.
Colette when you say we get to be rebuilt from scratch I can verify that’s totally true. If I was scratching any deeper I’d be eating the dog food in my grocery cart in my underwear (with my fingers). But I AM grateful that I still own my own spoon.
YAY for SPOOONS !!!! sending much love xooxo
Mercury retrograde in Cancer- my sign too Colette – my dob has 3 7s in it – I feel- (so cancerian I know),! That I seem to be aware of the live stream from the unconscious but as an observer .Sometimes I dip down into the torrent of thought of the unconscious only to move back into the observer .This week I was stood in a queue outside Corfu airport – Suddenly all I could see we’re the mosquito bites on everyone around me – Totally missed the point that I was being messages by spirt that I was indeed being eaten at that very moment – a few hours later – the itching started – however-I too have been drawn to meditation and a re examining of what really is valuable to me- Its so easy to get caught up in the value systems of others that no matter how well seeming may simply not serve us on our walk through life – blessing and peace – love M x
Hi, thank you for your insights. It really helps to learn about this retrograde time, in this difficult planetary time …..i have mars in cancer…..been feeling very emotional for long time…..and got the flu a week ago and boy…is it heavy…..i planned to go on a journey yesterday to do house sitting a a favourite little village 2 hours drive from wher i live, but as i was packing the car i started feeling totally terrible, wher the day before i felt better and thought i can do this trip, but i had to cancel and offcourse its really hard to do it a few hours before this woman had to leave her home which i had to be in….so she had to get someone else quickly, luckily she found someone……i felt so sad for having to do this, was so looking forward to go and needing to go………is this also retrograde stuff……planning things and then it changes….and feeling totally confused to commit to anything now, guess being ill makes it worse. Its this trustng that all is in Divine order, even if your plans changed, but why this underlying feeling that i made a mistake….that i should have gone….forcing myself to drive….afraid of now being missed out on something important on my path. Can one actually miss out on something destined to be?
Thank you. Love AND Light to us ALL. Namaste.
well, I think we can miss opportunities but there is always meaning in everything. IN the end it’s what we do not what we miss that counts. And, there is always something better… always..mistakes are made by all of us – and that is how great inventions are discovered… by not following the designated path. HUG
I love what you said about having claw marks on what has been let go. Been an entire season of letting go. An on going lengthy divorce, an unsuitable romance, a dear friend’s betrayal and a job change, and a new residence.. Change coming from all directions and having to let go of all I held on to tightly. Standing tall, keeping the faith and finding comfort in the peace I am finding, even if my nails are a bit broken as well as my heart. I love your card readings which has given me hope better days are coming…and some really great days are here! Thanks!
I had forgotten all about your forced rest, but had more than a big chuckle as I received your e-mail and came here, because a few days ago, I broke my foot. Yup. Stopped right in my tracks. And it wasn’t something quite as dramatic as a motorcycle accident, but the culmination of injuring my foot over time and not giving it proper rest to heal. I was outside where we have a path up to our home, and I took one big step off the path (double entendre intended), onto the lawn and that was it. Big ripping tearing feeling in my foot.
So now I can not drive or do a lot. But I am using this as an opportunity to get my 10 yr. old son involved in all of my daily “work” in the home. My husband has been more than fantastic (but a little too worried about me falling and getting hurt more).
I don’t know how much time I’ll have to just sit and contemplate, having a kid home on summer break. But activities and priorities have definitely shifted. I just look at this all and say, what is this here to teach me? Slow down and heal- yes (duh). And perhaps more that I’ll see more clearly later on.
The one question still out there is whether my son and I will be able to make our trip to the coast of Maine this summer. Time will tell, and we’ll figure it out.
love this.. sorry you hurt yourself though.. but there IS a gift!! practice turtle magic
Thank you Colette…I am going through so many changes at the moment and letting go and not taking things personally is paramount at this time. I am also learning to respect and love myself more each day. I am a Sagittarius and happy go lucky but also an emotional person. I get hurt easily and yet again I’m learning from my mistakes and who my real friends are. I do laugh at a lot of things that are going on in my life at the moment where as before I would of been ready to fight the world. I feel I am opening up and seeing things more clearly for the first time in years. I cried when I read this newsletter as it felt as if you were talking specifically to me! I love your work and am grateful for all the guidance I have received from you over the years. Lots of love lovely lady.
OMG-I forgot how much I love your perspective! Going through tough physical challenges with breast cancer – now cancer free. and an upcoming surgery. Plus some hefty neuro stuff – let’s say the committee is loud. so Spirit is calming.
Thanks,
Colette
I have to say this Mercury Retrograde finds me feeling very peaceful. I am moving again…downscaling from a 2 bedroom to a one bedroom so that I can afford to spend more time with my son (I’ll take the couch!). I am purging my garage of the remains of a 15 year business that went south and looking through all of my other possessions and getting rid of what I don’t use. There is no sense of lack or want and it feels GOOD!
Colette, I was pretty sure you were quoting my little ‘goblins’ when I first began reading your blog! They must all sound the same and to my detriment, I listen far too long to them before saying, ‘enough already!’ And turn to God/Goddess/Jesus/AA Michael/spirit guides, etc for a much better perspective on me and on life itself! I always ask myself why I listen for so long when it makes you feel so blech. I find myself in a life transition – after 20 years at a job, I was asked to resign and if in fact I don’t, I will then be fired. I was shocked, devastated, humiliated and scared for a week or so even though I firmly believe and know that there is always a blessing and purpose in all change. Ultimately, I will go on to bigger, better and brighter, led by my divine resources. But those darn little snots with their fear and logic and Debbie Downer attitudes creep up on me and catch me darn near every time! Your blog gave me a good laugh and the verification that no matter the circumstance, all will be well. God loves us and won’t let us fall, even if we flounder for a bit. Thank you for your inspiration and sense of humor!
All my life I believed that if I could only change my nose (of all things), I would be satisfied with myself and confident. Recently I made the decision to go ahead and look into surgery and had myself convinced that I was just starting the process of researching this, but then jumped into the commitment after my first consult with a surgeon. There were several red flags but I just wanted immediate gratification and wanted my “new” life to begin as soon as possible. I truly believed that my life was about to turn around that I was about to embark on the best years of my life. I am now 3 months post op – and not satisfied with my new nose (it is crooked etc). I am struggling with regret for rushing and not choosing a different surgeon (even though my surgeon is more than qualified – I no longer trust him) I am working on accepting myself as I am, and am striving to forgive myself and learn the lessons brought to me by this whole experience.
Your post resonated so much with me because this time feels very much like a time I am supposed to slow down – and REALLY evaluate the Goblins and unloving voices in my head. I have never gone through something emotionally that caused me to feel sick physically but its happening almost every day now – and it really slows me down. I am finding it difficult to have ambition when I have this sick pit in my stomach. I want to come through this stronger and happier but some days feel like I am holding on by my pinky from falling over a ledge into depression. Gaah!! I need to release self judgment and fear! I pray for peace and to release all of this icky stuff that is bogging me down.
this is a heartfelt and vulnerable post. I guess we all realize that the destination is never going to be what we think. ” when we get that we will feel this etc.” is a theme most of us here know and understand. But without this vulnerability we can’t be shaped by Love, it’s when our hearts are broken that we come undone and open… it’ll get better- I promise 😉 xooxox
Dear Colette and Zenbella – Thank you so much for your words of caring and support! They have given me much comfort.. with much love..Jesskat
HI JessKat, I too spent my life behind a conspicuous presence on my face. Honestly, I felt as though it may as well have been a part of male genitalia, it felt so awkward. My husband didn’t want me to change it. I did. A month later, he died. Then I found out he had been having an affair and all our money was spent on her (hence the not wanting me to get the surgery.) My nose still isn’t perfect. I think I have a droopy nostril. But you know, I wouldn’t swap that droop for anything. I realize it was one of the first things I’ve done for myself. Please honor that you have already done something for yourself and perhaps build on that energy. Blessings. ps…you won’t know what it really looks like for a good year. So letting go of that for a year allowed me a chance to look deeper.
I recently divulged to my bff, my soul sister, of my postings to your recent blogs, along with a couple of other communications that I had initiated… it was after all your raw honestly and vulnerability that inspired me to finally come out of my shell… I could feel your authenticity in the depth and core of my being… thank you for that 🙂 (My girlfriend had even mentioned to me after your ‘Boot of Shame’ blogs that no one seems to be immune from the shifts we are all going through.) Although I know she loves me and supports me I could ‘hear’ what was not being said… she intimated to me that perhaps I was not modeled how to be (paraphrasing) less forthright (which is true for the most part)… at first of course my ego kicked in with OMG… what have I done… I have revealed too much of myself, what will people think… it didn’t last long though as my higher wisdom reminded me that she also said if I was being truly authentically me from that place that resonates deep in the core of my being and not sharing anything with the hopes of some ulterior motive or a preplanned outcome in mind then that was all that mattered… which is what I felt I was doing… I have only ever shared that part of myself that is truly authentically me… from that place in me that is detached from outcomes, and/or judgments and motivations of the ego… not to say that there isn’t any fear… ‘cuz there most definitely is a whole lot of that ;)… but I am pushing through it anyway. And so… in serving this new part of my journey I have a question for your consideration…
What if this time of evolution is a time where the rubber hits the road so as to speak? No pun intended and not to make light of your situation (I have experienced a badly broken body and know it is not fun)… but let’s just say for a moment that this is where the wheat is separated from the chaff… where people, like me and others are ready to traverse in to the depths… There are in this moment few people that are truly, and I mean truly going the distance… whatever the reasons… no judgement… only love and compassion for everyone… it’s definitely not an easy path to be on… we are all witnessing a global mass awakening of consciousness right now… but only a few that are ready, willing, and able to fully surrender… to be the embodiment of our full potential… In my 42 years on this planet I have yet to really find where I “fit in”… although I can feel it coming, I can feel a hearts calling and a gravitational pull towards some and away from others… I can feel my body shifting and changing in ways that I don’t yet understand… I can feel the releasing of the old and that which no longer serves and a re-calibration of sorts to a higher plane of resonance. Up to this point I seem to have been one who has required the proverbial knock upside the head, but I have been noticing more and more, the more willing I am to surrender what I think should be happening (or my agenda) the more gracefully I am guided. It is a leap of faith for sure… but I have been discovering it develops trust and stamina. You are an amazing gifted healer and teacher Colette and I truly honor you and your journey <3 and if spirit did not believe that you had the strength, courage, stamina and conviction to lead and guide others you would not have been placed on this path. Keep doing what you’re doing and being true to you… your tribe loves and supports you <3 Soooo much love to you and deep gratitude for your blessings and hugs and kisses too 🙂
you are awesome we are awesome.. its yucky some days , good others, none of us are immune, grace grit and ridiculous laughter at the fear and instability and beautiful epiphanies as we make this gumbo soup together !! xoox
It”s Mercury retrogreade, I should have known. I”be noticed in the last few days especially today how insecure I feel and how that is selfishly affecting my relationships. I have become self absorbed and taking everything personally, I constantly am wanting and feeling the need for validation and at the same time feeling my ego overly inflated as a result like the world revolves around me. This is the first time I have noticed how much I have been thinking about myself, specifically around this time. My plan is to focus on others and actively listen to them. I hope it works because I have a mindset right now that currently needs changing.
I know this subject is not on topic. I was wondering how you got started as an intuitive. Before I began teaching, I read tarot for people as a part-time business to gain some experience and money while I was attending university. Sometimes, I didn’t need the cards but, I believe I have an intuitive ability. My mom is Micmac “closet” medium and she is scared of her gift. She’s seen many shadow, angels, ghosts, and spirits all of her life. She feels isolated from everyone and my mom has introduced all of this to me at a young age. However, I am not afraid of this. I can hear spirits and see pictures and feel things. I have all of your oracle decks and spiritual books. I listen to your shows and read your columns religiously as if I’m learning as a student of spirit. I really want to attend your invizion project in July and September. I feel that I’m called to do this work later down the road. Do you have any advice or tips or step by step guide for start up businesses like myself? I’m so eager to help others.
Thanks so much.
follow your heart, follow your inner guidance and start small one client at a time. I prayed for years ” If I’m the real deal let the people come if not send them away- show me who I can help” ONe thing is very important though – every intuitive must do their own inner work, never assume you are entitled, or do this work just to make money. It will come after the fact. Study study study and learn from who you are drawn to. If you’re meant to do this work it will come to you. oxoxox
Thank you for the lovely comment! I will study and follow whom I’m drawn to. Have a great night and take care, Colette! 🙂
I love this Chat session…I am a scorpio and have been for the last 5 days very off my game!….Mercury eh???? I have let self pity, fear, take control and I don’t like it…Thank you everyone for talking from the heart I sometimes feel very alone even though I have been married for over 30 years I am not alone. I am dealing with some health issues and cannot be as active as I would like to be which keeps me homebound more than I like. But thanks to all of you, your comments have lifted me up. Bless you all
Love to you dear BJ oxox
So THAT is what’s up! I keep bursting into sobs for no apparent reason! I am recently separated (as you had mentioned was coming in a reading 2 years ago) and my horses, calves and dog are with him.
I NEVER pictured myself animal free! It is lonely. HOWEVER, an opportunity to move from NH to NY has presented itself. This would not be even a twinkle in my eye if we were together OR he didn’t have the animals with him.
I too a CANCER, am turning 50 in 13 days!! Merc in Retro……….
Am I babbling? Wasn’t this the title of your post? I have no clue what I want to say. Just reaching out and sending birthday wishes to you, and healing .
Signed,
Scared S*#tless to Make a Change <3
you can do it one teeny weeny idly biddy step at a time … the merc retro cha cha is 2 forward 3 side , fall down jump up go round in circles and wait til July 20 xooxox happy birthday oxoxox
Thank you!!! I recently read your book on signs and symbols and find I am constantly thinking of this, twice whilst reading this book I asked for a sign- went outside and both times – A Rainbow – bright and clear! in exactly the same place and then again just before leaving home to go housesitting -( 2 beautiful dogs, in a lovely home right on the beach with Southern Right Whales coming in for the birthing season!!) Hope all is well for you and happy birthday for the day, mine is tomorrow (2nd) and I am a wood snake so hopefully I will get to see a whale or two!!! Very Excited. I could Babble on for ages as it is really nice to send this and make some sort of contact with you!! so I will sign off with one of my favourite’s. All the best and thanks again, lots of love, Ally
Yesterday is History
Tomorrow is a Mystery
Today is a gift from Spirit
That’s why it’s called the Present
Thank you Colette Baron-Reid.
I too am a cancer and at this time in my life have been going through some major changes. I still have a long way to go in cleaning my home and my life, but it is starting to be much clearer to me what has to be done. With the knowledge I have acquired thus far, I have passed it on to others in a way that has helped them in their time of need. I feel by my doing this has also helped me become a better person in many ways.
Sending good Reiki energy to you Collette!
Heal soon!
Blessings & love,
Pam Sekula
OMGOODNESS … how refreshing … I’ve only read part way so far … and I find you totally refreshing … to say you also have those niggling thoughts … thank you for sharing!!! Now I just feel regular crazy … not totally outta this world caaraaaazy! … 🙂 Ohmygoodness thank you!
in JOY-filled Gratitude~
Karin Becker
This newsletter came at the perfect time and spoke volumes to me! Thank you Colette!
I’m about to leave the career I’ve always known and until recently loved, to embark on my own business, where I will get to do what I love, and share this with others in ways that will impact their lives for the better… yet I am TERRIFIED to take a step forward. I have the love and support I need to get me through this.. but nope, still terrified with feet frozen to the ground and so scared that I feel like a small child who refuses to move an inch and pushes back when really my whole life is about to change… for the better… and I not only know this… I FEEL IT!!! All signs point to yes, and I’m still scared, and more emotional than I’ve ever been in my life. Your explanation of the retrograde and the impact it can have, the emotions and actions it can stir… helps make all this all more understandable and makes me realize I just need to calm the heck down and take a deep breath, and ask myself:
“What are you holding on to out of familiarity, and what needs to replace it for you to feel good?”
Thank you so much Colette. Much love,
Cindy
I am literally crying my eyes out reading all of these comments… Thank you, all of you…like Randi said (hope i spelled correctly). I can not quit crying, because I feel like maybe there is hope that some people might be able to understand the way that I feel & think–which is ‘astrological jargon’, so to speak–my Mercury is in the house originally ruled by astrology (8th house-Scorpio), & lined up with the outer wheel, that turns 2 degrees every 15 minutes, or so, anyway….umm..my Mercury (communication planet) is lined up with the Aries sign (which is where my Sun is & almost half of my planets). Im supposed to empty the ‘basement of my personality’ (to me, this indicates my Aries sun (ego), & according to my favorite astrologer ever, Charlene Rose Johnson <3 <3..) anyway, my grandpa's dresser from when he was 19 looks just like ur "cleaning house" card/ (he died in 2005 while i was on the floor at 22, wd'ing off of methadone, Definitely at a 'rock bottom' point in my life, also just had gotten out of jail & ran over my dog of 14 yrs just b4 i decided to quit, & at least admit that I had a problem–i didnt really quit trying until about 4 yrs ago, right before i got pregnant–suboxone can be a life-saver–& it had a Gnostic cross on it–I remember being in Starke, Fl (yuck!) in that aptmt right after my gpa died, my mom came to the door to tell me about it, sobbing, & I couldn't even crawl across the floor to hug her!! The shame from her eyes was so unbearable, & this is one of the things that helps me to stay away from this horrible drug, (synthetic heroine/methadone)–point is, (& sometimes I still mess up, but am 1 sober) & mostly not touched in yrs. & my husband & I made a promise to each other to not to do it anymore (or I want a divorce! from me, or 'us'–& I dont want to lose my 1st born 😉 ). I never want to touch that drug again, unless lying in a hospital bed, & I actually need it. I prayed & prayed to Mother God, Father God, & the Holy Trinity–that's how i start out my prayers usu..that they'd make a drug that helped all of the 10, of 1000's, if not millions of people with this terrible addiction (& heroine being awful too, but methadone w/ds are even worse, lasting weeks!!~I prayed & prayed & they answered mine, & prob many others' prayers)…, My grandpa's dresser looks Just like the dresser in the "Cleaning House" oracle from "The Map" deck…Now, that the bottom drawer fell off!! & I swear I had some "fairy tale" visitors & that I even saw them! Really!! Two next to my pillow (fairies), or i could just be crazy! Uhh, God, I hope not. Just wanted u ALL to know THANK YOU!! For your openness, best chat session ever, indeed!! Was taking out recyclables, & found a Yogi tea saying that said, "Empty yourself. & let the Uni-Verse fill you". Time of letting go. Feels sort of nice. & yes, it's so the little things & being grateful for them that is grace. I never really liked myself; how can u like yourself if u feel so alone & misunderstood? I don't know? But am letting Spirtit & my own inner Divinity be my guidance. Thank you, Colette & everyOne. XoxoxoxoxO!!! & AMEN!! to u, & Doug… Cant wait to catch up on all of your podcasts. & holdin on to my spoon & cup! xoxoxo~!
Just getting around to reading your most recent post Collette and having read through most of the comments I feel very disconnected from all of it. I feel as though mercury retrograde has been happening *to* me for the past 10 years. I am a Pisces and believe that I have Cancer as my moon or else in my house of relationships.
I ditched the bad relationship/marriage many years ago while my son was still young and *thought* that once that chapter was done my REAL life would begin but that has not happened. Less than 4 years ago, I thought THEN that my new *connected*inspired*spiritual*of-service life would take off in the fall of 2010, but then my dad passed suddenly in the fall of ’09 while only 62 years old and since then I’ve been unable to plan anything… was going to try starting my own Reiki practice combined with some kind of intuitive readings, but after my dad’s passing, none of that seemed all that important anymore. Plus then there was helping my brother with my dad’s estate and the removal of all his *stuff, helping to clean & renovate the house to sell and it took priority – and it still took 12 months to finally sell the house.
I then began thinking that NOW things will start to move forward, but then I had some employee/Revenue Canada issues that resulted in lost employment and have spent the past 9 months unemployed while using up all my savings.
Am working now, but it is not ideal, nor does it fulfill any particular need (paid in cash), highly flexible hours/monthly income is a sad amount.
And at the end of the day, all my plans and hopes for the future seem so far away and so unrealistic that I don’t seem to ever sense anymore when mercury ISN’T retrograde.
I’ve had so many starts and stops over the past 10 years that I’m not even certain that I wouldn’t experience some major anxiety or panic attacks if they were to suddenly stop… I always seem to feel that I’m waiting for the next shoe to drop and don’t know how to stop thinking along those lines. My inner Goblen and Ghosts are in full force any time something interferes with any positive thoughts that happen along and have not the energy to turn them around.
I know all about law of attraction and yet seem completely helpless to stop thinking fatalisitcally. I don’t plan much of anything anymore and usually never more than a day or a week in advance since anything more long-term never seems to materialize.
I have your most recent Map cards and book and was quite excited to finally have them in hand, and then all the stuff with my dad and my work happened and am still unable to connect/work with either of them.
But I did want to say that out of all the oracle decks I have, the artwork on your decks are the most visually beautiful and creative. 🙂