A Winter’s Tale in July (or Why I Love to Look at Stars)!
Updated: July 6, 2014
Dearest Sparkle Being of Light,
Yes, I know I love using those silly ways to call you, but in my tribe everyone is magical and has some wonderfully mystical purpose in this life. You know that, right? You know you have a purpose, even if you can’t name it out loud, you, as an expression of the Divine, are here for something important that only you can bring to the world. No matter that some days you just wonder what it’s all about, given we all suffer from bouts of spiritual amnesia once in a while.
It’s been a weird and tough week for me at my house mostly because of my dog Beanie and her breathing issues, as managing them includes keeping her stress levels down as much as possible, which we could do until the thunderstorms worsened her symptoms. Thank GOD for the creators of The ThunderShirt®, an amazing contraption to reduce anxiety in dogs (and cats).
Good thing we had one, although we forgot where we put it!
So, my amazing husband came to the rescue, ran to the local pet store through heavy relentless rainfall, flash floods all over the place, only to be sent back out because Beanie needed an xxx-small, and Marc had brought home a small. I called the pet store only to hear the agitated owner’s voice saying, “My store is flooding!” on the phone but that he did have the xxx-small, so Marc went over with a U-Vac peace offering and managed to make it back in one piece regardless of the fact that his phone alerted him to take cover immediately since a tornado was coming. We got it on her just as her tongue began to turn blue, but she calmed right down (although I sure didn’t right away).
Tornado missed us, but it dropped hail the size of golf balls not too far from us. That, apparently, was only the beginning.
I mean c’mon you can’t make this stuff up!
So our little family hunkered down in front of the TV and decided to watch a movie, A Winter’s Tale, one that got terrible reviews by the critics but intuitively I felt we should watch anyway.
The first thing I noticed was how I was sinking into the magic of the story, forgetting my tension, with the underlying theme of love everlasting, and how each of us has one miracle we are to deliver in our lifetime before we return to Source as a star in the sky.
I began to feel, and as a result became aware of how numb I had gotten while trying to manage the conditions in my life I was powerless over. I don’t know about you, but I’ve developed a survival mechanism to hold my feelings off when I’m in alert, patrol, and management mode, which of course provides me with little context other than an emotion hairball to sort through after the fact. Of course, given that I am self-aware, this thankfully doesn’t last too long. But I want to be present to my life always, and although I’ve created processes that help, nothing works perfectly, or maybe I’m not ready for them to. I wonder if you identify with this at all?
The more the movie took hold, the more I relaxed and let my heart open with the story, and I was able to shed some pent up tears that had been waiting for me to let go of. As per my husband, he will not let me talk about him here so I can’t say too much other than, “I saw water near his eyes.” (statement is censor approved).
It’s always a surprise to me that I have yet again succumbed to that kind of numb amnesia where at some level I have forgotten the depth of feelings essential to make music, to write poetry, to tell meaningful stories, to share life, and to know Nature and Spirit. The word Universe literally means “one song” and I get that when life throws me off the tracks, I can’t hear the melody and only know vaguely that something is missing. The song is missing and so is my note when I numb out.
To live we need to listen to the music and be in it as it’s happening.
Do you know this too?
Without giving the movie away, I will say how moving it was to get a visual reminder about how the Light wins over the Darkness always and how Love never dies, no matter how it changes form.
But, the most beautiful, simple message that touched me is something we all need to remember: we are each here to deliver a miracle.
We won’t be told what it will be, we just need to follow the music and the Light to find out.
Then, when it’s all said and done, we will become stars in the sky.
All my love,
Keeping it simple,
And … Listening.