Been considering many things this Taurus mercury retrograde (and multi planetary snafu) as the invitation to renew, rethink, reconsider and really get clarity come up for me and others I cross paths with. From all the conversations I’ve had with friends, family, and clients, and what’s come up in meditation these past two weeks, listening to my guides, I have less solid answers and way more fluid questions which always indicates a period of serious growth.
Sometimes you just can’t avoid or distract yourself from the pain of growth. Retrogrades are just those times. You can try, but the results? Not so good!
I’m one of those irritating people who actually welcome the messy chaotic process of recalibration. As much as it’s uncomfortable (and it is!) it never fails to bring me to a new point of maturity, awareness and service.
The part I’m not so excited about is when the vulnerability spills out from the reveal. Not sure how you feel about it all, but I’d like that to be less messy. I’d like not to have put on weight so everyone can see I needed protection – again.
I’d like to be at the other side of it all faster but “loving what is”, as Byron Katie says. That’s the only way through. I’m there 80% of the time. I wonder how you feel about your process? So much pressure to get to the other side,- to arrive- to get to that “thing” that “place” that destination that will make it all ok. How did we build such a weird culture of perfection and punishment?
I’m similar to the many in my experience of wading through molasses yet moving at the speed of light. If you’re still reading this you’ve heard the call to be part of this great Shift, likely thrilled to be a Light Worker but probably a little confused and possibly pissed (maybe in secret cuz you don’t want anyone to see you like that) that nobody thought to give us instructions in advance!
I’m grateful for my guides- a chorus of voices that started hanging around a couple years ago. My new book – Uncharted- the journey through uncertainty to infinite possibility comes out end of September so you’ll meet them then- neither one nor many “they” say their name is Fred. Yep- other people get the archangels, and other lofty access points to the laws of the Matrix and I get a chorus called Fred. I’ve stopped caring who will scoff or deny or challenge. All those feelings and stories and chatterings after all live in me, and projects outward. Wise, I know are my “ Fred” plus “they” are hilarious.
I need funny. Life just gets way too serious.
I’m going to announce my new workshop based on the new book this week. It’s going to be an annual intimate event with a limit to participants so we can really dive in. This year it will be held in Toronto. New material, new ideas, most channeled to be honest, courtesy of a new intimacy with some pretty interesting multidimensional information. Spirit and science and oracles, and working with energy = purpose, power, busting blocks and plugging into your partnership with Spirit. Co-creation at its finest, or messiest depending on how you look at it. It will be a true exploration of magic.
Good questions for us all to ask now – How is my foundation? Am I being authentic? Is my work based on solid ground? Am I teachable? Can I trust? Do I believe I’m enough? Can I love the part of me that’s afraid, that feels the lack- that fears the lack-that can’t remember the abundance? Can I accept the fearful part that forgets to trust that takes the wheel and can’t remember how to drive? Can I forgive the missteps, surrender and summon the compassionate Observer?
Even though I know the invisible is vast and powerful and lives in me can I accept the limitations of my tiny temporary life that is both? In so doing can I awaken to the paradox of infinite possibility? Can I find value in the messy humanity that I’m a part of even though I know there is more? Can I allow the path to be revealed instead of demanding a map? Can I allow entitlement and hubris to show itself and not be punished for its fearful projections? Can I be brave enough? Can I forgive and be still with the sorrow of loss and failed expectations?
And, with all these questions, (O yeah they will keep you busy this week1) in the end can I be the fertile soil and not just the beautiful flower that proves the process of miracles? The mud, and the dirt?
How can I see where I’m supposed to go?
Intuition is the only true navigator in this foggy Uncharted terrain.
Here’s what I know- intuition is like a tuning fork that all of a sudden hits a harmonic strand of truth – like a river of energy that reveals the truth of movement and momentum, glimpses of potentials set in motion by the life force that accepts expression in all forms.
You know when you’re tuned in to it. It resonates in the body like a truth that needs no explanation. There is no effort to this kind of listening and receiving. It’s only art is in learning to allow to gently open up to the periphery of the small self. It’s like seeing the world out of the corner of your eyes- indirect, yet so revealing.
Conversely trying to find the clues forcefully because you want an outcome to be what you want invites a trickster energy that comes from a willfulness that has nothing to do with intuition. It comes from wishful thinking, from the need to control events, to believe in a magically conjured fate and to shape destiny from that egoic will. It’s like getting high, – you believe you set the world in motion only through your desire and deliberateness. Underlying that is the fear that all is not what you think and so wishful thinking is unleashed and then it shows its true power to confuse even the oracles you consult.
Intuition comes from a different kind of intention- to know the will of the Divine, as it sparks from within you yes, tracking the energy set in motion by so many variables you can’t possibly count them. It always carries with it an element of awe. Sometimes, yes it will bring disappointment. But it will always bring the truth. Allowing it is key.
Wishful thinking will also bring elements of power but its limited in its scope and like a drug will feel amazing only in the beginning but will likely resolve itself in a puddle of regret and powerlessness. If the small self only could remember it can’t really do S**T without the soul!
Intuition is tuning into the Observer- which is an aspect of the soul.
Making the oracle cards, or looking for signs to tell you what you want is going to happen be decidedly not that.
A simple exercise I have people do in all my workshops is to sense the difference in the body and emotions between an absolute truth and a blatant lie. That’s how you tell which is which. The lie is a seduction. The truth just is.
So .. I know I’ve rambled this week. But lots to think about and hopefully discuss in our conversations – I now pass the talking stick over to you!
My playlist for writing today is a Celtic band called The Gloaming. (Hence the pensive tone- music really does influence thinking).
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