A while back in my early days of being a student of metaphysics and new at working with prosperity laws, (going back 30 years!)I made a list of experiences I wanted to have. Now I was very detail oriented back then (when I didn’t know better) and was very clear on what form I wanted my desires to come packaged in.
I recently found a box of old writings and I discovered some of my forgotten affirmations journals that I’m embarrassed to say sounded like a loud list of demands and specific wants rather than a trusting statement that I could be used in service, and that my inspirations would manifest in divine order and timing, and form.
It was kind of like “ Thy will be done FOR me” before it evolved into the truest of prayers;- “Thy will be done THROUGH me”.
But you have to start somewhere! The Law of Attraction for me was like a key to a magical candy machine that didn’t quite work the way I expected. In my experience it would oddly spit out the wrong kind of stuff, you know when you think you paid for chocolate and it spits out Alka Seltzer! (at the strangest times too! ) and then there are the shocking experiences that are exactly what you once wanted but get delivered 10 years after you stopped caring. Now what do we do with that?
Looking back on some of my old vision boards it was pretty obvious I was more interested in achieving the exact form I thought would make me happy than allowing Spirit to decide. This was of course before I really understood that Spirit was the source of my supply and Colette was a co-pilot not the boss, the partner not the controller, etc.
Granted we need our personalities, our very mortal selves to experience life. We need to be the channels for inspiration and desire but I learned early on that relentless demands for manifesting desires didn’t work. Desire can’t be the only motivator. There needs to be the pause between breaths, movement forward accompanied by surrender and flow and the willingness to follow a spiral pathway. Manifestation is never a straight line.
In my upcoming book Uncharted (and July workshop this summer) I go into detail about the layers of interconnected threads weaving together our hearts desires, our fate and destiny and our innate power to pull into form that which exists in its purest essence in the unmanifest Realm of Spirit. It really is remarkable when we can stay awake long enough to witness it. You and me are always co-creating and there is an art to it all.
This weekend I experienced a 28 year old dream of mine long etched in those journals come to pass. The funny thing was I had completely forgotten about it. When I was pursuing my career as a singer songwriter one image I kept so close to my heart was that one day I would be on stage singing at Massey Hall in Toronto – this extraordinary theater with the best acoustics in the world that so many brilliant artists had performed in.
For me I believed if I got to be on stage there, microphone in hand, I would really have arrived. I would meditate on how it would feel to be up there, sharing my art and moving people with it. Although I joke about wanting to be a rock star I’ve never cared about being famous, but I always wanted to make a difference the way other artists had influenced me.
If you know my story you know music didn’t pan out for me as a career although I did get exactly everything I wanted – record deal, touring etc. But alas- no Massey Hall for this girl.
So here I am on Sunday feeling like a lightning rod for Spirit demonstrating mediumship – (the thing I ran from for years), fueled on grace and gratitude knowing I am exactly where I’m supposed to be and doing the service I was born to do. I saw people truly moved by the experience we shared. Microphone in hand I was able to forget myself completely and give my all to the room, just like it is when I sing.
The Toronto I Can Do It conference was held at a place called Roy Thompson Hall, also known as “The new Massey Hall”
Spirit really does have a sense of humor. That co-creation candy machine was working in fine form. Clunk – there you go Colette 20 years later in the perfect form that matched my truest self in the most meaningful way. Did I arrive anywhere?
Nope! It was one powerful moment I will remember for sure but today is a new day and I’m still trudging the road of happy destiny one day at a time. But boy o boy do I ever know Spirit has a plan and will deliver our highest good. It just won’t be exactly what we want. Even if the moment we’re searching for takes 25 years and doesn’t come the way we had ever imagined-It will be what we need.
Ok tag you’re it.. I know this is a topic we’ve talked about before but I’d love to keep the conversation going. Have you ever had something happen years later when you’d already left it behind? Have you been revisited by an old dream long after you recovered from the disappointments only to find you experience an even better version of it?
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