Who’s Large and In Charge? .. (thoughts on surrendering to Divine Will)
Dearest amazing you,
This weekend while standing on my deck with hubby and the two fur babies I saw a most wondrous sight. We live close to the beach here and as it was the 4th of July, there were fireworks displays everywhere and so we went out to see the brilliant exploding lights soar above the trees that separate us from the water.
But what had me transfixed wasn’t up in the air, although the whole point of going out there was to watch the fireworks. Jumping across our property were hundreds of fireflies sparkling in the dark as if they were dancing along with the lights in the sky. At first I thought they might be sparks from the fireworks but then I realized what I was seeing and it was amazing.
It reminded me how miraculous and beautiful Nature is. It also reminded me that I might be intent on looking in one direction but something even more beautiful and amazing will call me that I wasn’t expecting.
This week in a spiritual sharing group I belong to the daily topic was Self will vs. Divine Will. About half way through the meeting, a big burly man raised his hand and declared “ I ask myself every day – Who’s Large and in Charge? I might be a little large but I have to remind myself it’s my Higher Power and not me!
When I do that everything falls into place.” We’re a democratic group of all colors and creeds only identifying by our spiritual directive to have a conscious contact to a Higher Power so that we can be of service to others. This question “Who’s Large and In Charge?” spurred a thoughtful conversation about God and what we believe about our relationship to the Divine Will.
Do we pick door #1 and wait for a rescuing God to fix things? Or do we pick door #2 take action and surrender the results to God?
I know intimately how many times I’ve gone on a secret stinky thinking bender where my affirmations are more like a demand of “I want what I want when and How I want it! PULLLLLLEASE????”
Followed by “OK thy will be done. Amen”
Thankfully that behavior lasts only so long and it’s not that often I indulge myself these days. What I’ve learned (when I can remember that’s how its supposed to go), is only when I’ve surrendered my willfulness to Spirit, and mean it, shifting into the right use of will—taking the next right action and praying only to be of service while “loosely” holding my desires and intentions has my life worked out like magic.
Oh and it has, yup even with the temporary bouts of spiritual amnesia when I think I’m the reason I’m doing so well. My small self decided and chose, and took the steps forward but ultimately it’s Spirit, the Divine Will is what/who’s Large and in Charge! And nothing that has occurred in my life has been according to any of my plans. Not one thing. I know we have to participate in our own rescue. The right use of will is about choice and accountability and then integrated with Divine will we can be miracle makers.
Today I met my girlfriend Julie for coffee. You might recall my hilarious story of the giant dragonfly that was the sign I asked for when house hunting in Connecticut. Julie was the real estate agent that the dragonfly circled and has been my closest friend here ever since. We were sharing about how much we were going to miss each other when I moved up to the farm in Canada and how uncanny things were, and how we both believed that Spirit had a plan far beyond our comprehension and how amazing it all was. We had not planned to buy property in Canada but in a series of synchronistic events, divine timing won over our best-laid plans and now it’s turning out to be a magical Spirit led endeavor. I had to surrender to Divine Will just like when I was led to Julie the farm came together in so many similar ways. “ Show me where we’re supposed to live – thy will be done. Amen.”
We had a giggle in awe of Spirit and how the dragonfly back in September brought us together, and how we would always be friends forever. We were talking about taking our eye off the prize we think we want and surrendering to how Spirit wants it for us, and how we both were learning that. We shared how in both our experience it’s always about the essence first, then the form shows up in perfect order.
A few minutes later we noticed something flying towards us. Lo and behold two giant dragonflies hovered dancing together in unison. Circling slowly around us -there were two of them, as if Spirit heard us! The sign was so intimate and personal our jaws dropped. Neither of us had seen another dragonfly since the day we met.
Have you ever had that happen? Focus on one thing you’re so sure is for you only to be steered in another direction that is better than you could imagine? The essential elements are the same but the form is completely different than what you expected or even wanted? Yet it was all so perfect in the end?
So Who’s Large and in Charge? Love to hear from you.
Join the conversation, I send you so much love and wish you peace and a basket of miracles.
Love
Colette!
My own personal spirituality tells me that our thoughts, words and actions are creative, but we cannot dictate the how or for all but the most evolved, the when. This topic is important to me because I feel that many are more than happy to absolve responsibility for the desire, which I believe is your responsibility – it is God’s job to provide the experience that you create with your thoughts, words and deeds. It is an awesome responsibility when you realize that YOU are the creator of your experience. Then comes the hard part for me – patience – the more faith you have, the quicker it happens. This is what I believe.
Beloved Sparkly Colette, how lovely to have you back from your tour, to your wonderful, uniquely you blog. You always , always write exactly what I need to hear, for the place I am in at the moment, and I know I’m not the only one! I still love you to bits in that non creepy, non-stalkerish kind of way 🙂 Bless you for the joyful wisdom you share. Love & sparkly firefly Light xxxxx
Dear Colette,
just before I read your blog today, I pulled some cards. I used the Wisdom of Avalon deck and got 1) The Stag, 2) The Mystery and 3) Truth.
And yet your article is mirroring exactly these topics: taking over responsibility, being accountable, surrendering the form of the result to the Divine and being true to oneself….
I would like to note that I never have pulled Truth before! Obviously this is more than one sign that I have to think about your questions.
I think it’s exactly how you wrote. Sometimes the little ego suffers of hybris and thinks that it can control the outcome of any action and behavior. But real magic only happens when you let go of the expectation about a certain development or result, but still keep a loose connection to your intention.
Honestly, I have to admit that I sometimes fall back into my former role of a control freak. And then I often wonder why I get stuck and nothing happens. These are the little reminders that I only can do one step into the right direction and not 10 or 100 all together or plan them in advance. At the latest, that’s when I have to admit and to accept that there is a Divine power that sometimes has other plans for us.
We can not plan every little step and control the outcome, even if we would like to. But we should be aware of the signs surrounding us and be open for a change. It’s all about patience, surrender, momentum and trust that all circumstances will align for the highest purpose.
Still puzzled because of the cards…
xo, Alexandra
July 6, 2015
My spiritual journey started in earnest when I had a reading two days in a row from two different people. They both said, independently, that my 5th Chakra was blocked. Needless to say, that caught my interest and I started by figuring out what the 5th Chakra was and haven’t looked back since. That day many years ago and I have learned a lot since then but I still struggle with control issues. I want to thank you for the reminder today. It spoke directly to me and I will refocus on this issue.
Love and Light,
Very strange… I’m even more puzzled after watching the Energy Forecast for the upcoming week.
Yesterday I started de-cluttering my home (after pulling “Encouragement” yesterday morning…) in order to make space for something new.
Seems like I finally have found my connection to Spirit.
Thank you so much, Colette!
It all started with buying your oracle card deck “The Map” and then reading the book and “Messages from Spirit”. There is so much vibrancy in your words – and they seem to send on a frequency that I can receive… 🙂
Huge hugs!
hugs!
Perfect timing for such a message. Thank you for sharing. I feel that I have been getting the message to surrender and now this confirms surrender and reminds me once again who is in charge. Thanks Colette!
Thank you, Colette for the weekly inspired reading. You were right on – my house is cluttered and I’m been trying to clean it out, and everytime I do, something happens that must be done first.
Your reading inspired me, and gave me some hope that something better is coming around the corner. I pray that it is my friend, Steve, whom I haven’t seen for many weeks.
I enjoy reading your comments.
Hopeful in Guelph
Hi Tribe
When I was starting to design my first chiropractic clinic I lived in Portland, Oregon. I had spent many hours focusing over the years, while I was in school, on what my clinic would look like in Portland. There would be multiple doctors and a natural birth clinic and I was going to be a big part of that design. Within months after graduating from chiropractic school I was renting a space in a 12 Dr. alternative disciplinary natural birth clinic in Portland, my dream clinic came true, or so I thought …
Later that summer my grandmother came for a visit and wanted to spend the day visitng a distant relative of mine in Eugene, Oregon, about two hours south of Portland. So we went down there visiting my relatives and returned by suppertime that same day. I didn’t think much of it but we enjoyed our day, I had never been to Eugene or given it much thought after we left there with grandma.
Synchronistically, six weeks later a colleague of mine flew in from Minnesota to stayed with us in Portland and she had an interview for a chiropractic clinic position in Eugene, Oregon. She returned back with great news that she had received an offer to be an associate there and then she mentioned that they needed a second associate.
Well, I accepted the offer and now 12 years later we’re happily still living in Eugene, Oregon. I now have the most wonderful healing solo chiropractic clinic, and the house of my dreams. I just know it was Spirits will, even though for years I had visualized something different. This outcome is better than I could have ever imagined.
In Health,
Shawn
love this !
So Happy you had a great tour, but happier yet to hear your Universal Energies for the Week! Thank you!!
Hi Colette – oh my goodness how this resonated with me!!! I am a fairly controlling person (I said it !!) and also impulsive, and when i get an idea about something /anything then whoa!!!! i don’t let go – but somehow Spirit ALWAYS cuts in and directs me onto the correct, if somewhat surprising path, and of course, its the correct one for me!!! All I can say is that I always thank Spirit and my angels for their protection which I have enjoyed (thankfully) for all of my 68 yrs!!! I send you so much love xxx
big love Jenny.. I totally understand you.. I used to joke that when I want something I’m like a dog with a bone. Its good to be tenacious but in order to manifest the right form we have to let go the one we think we want.
Thank you .. For some this will be a morning read .. But for me it was a before bed read and then the video weekly cards .. I will be resting easy .. Tomorrow I am doing Mystic Monday .. Doing messages at a local fish and chip shop .. Love the local theme .. Anyhow you are a tremendous vehicle for the magic of spirit , I can feel your authentic desire to serve, and your willingness to let the magic of Spirit come through you to inspire and encourage others .. Your stinky thinking moments are no-things .. You know Who is in charge .. Bless you .. Lisa
I asked for a sign when walking in the woods yesterday. I’ve been a little down on myself because although my dream of being an author is unfolding, it’s not going as fast as my ego wants it to. Also in regards to finding the right partner, I’m probably so fixated on what I think I want, I’m not surrendering.
This post comes at the perfect time. I know from experience that the less you hold on, the more things will unfold in ways unimaginable. So thank you for my very own sign. 🙂
you know Rachel, being an author just means you’ve gone through the arduous task of writing and then offering it to others. Let the experience of it all reveal itself to you with no expectations. Then you’ll see the miracle of it.
Hi Rachel, I checked out your website, you’ve got it going on! Looks nice. I just published a book myself and I have a long ways to go too. I have thoughts on what I saw, but don’t get down it takes time and you will do fine.
Dearest sparkliest wonderful Collette,
Thank you for sharing your story. I too have chosen dragonflies as signs for my transformation. And ‘Who’s large and in charge?” will become my new reminder.
I love how much fun and curiosity you inject into what you do. Keep up the inspirational work.
Warm regards,
Kathrin
I’ve learnt recently that I’m definitely not in charge. No matter that all my heart desired was to meet a man, get married settle down and have kids.
instead it took me a long time to meet my partner who doesn’t want to get married and we still can’t find a house that we love an fits into our budget and the latest message from the universe is that it definitely doesn’t want me to be a mother.
So now not sure what to do with my life or if there is any point to it.
gratitude for what you do have would be a good start.. sending a hug…
It’s not that I don’t appreciate what I have, I do. I love my man and I know he loves me, we are soul mates.
Our house is my house, it’s small and difficult to even have family over and fit them all in, but affording something bigger is difficult. It would be nice to have something that is our home that we can invite family over and not feel like we don’t have the room.
My point was that I have no control over these things.
Motherhood takes many forms, honey. Maybe there is a special reason for this delay as well. Be open and calm — the point is already self evident. It is in the surrender.
wise words, very wise
I don’t even know what that means.
Hi Collette,
I love the idea of essence before form. Finding it so true in my life too. Your story about your friendship growing from a dragonfly experience is beautiful and encourages me to think positively about new friends too.
Thanks and have a lovely day!
Thank you for reading.
Good morning Colette, what a wonderful message and I can totally relate in my own life. We have a lot going on in our family. Our Son is moving on to university in the fall and our Daughter has had on going issues with food since last Fall. I am also going through menopause so sometimes I find life overwhelming. I have an amazing Husband who I am truly blessed to have him and he keeps me grounded. I have been asking for help from spirit guides to help us to help our Beautiful Daughter. She was a perfectly healthy 14 yr old vegetarian and suddenly started having major stomach/bowel issues and after many tests and doctors appointments we have no answers. We are trying to increase her food options. I am trying to reach out daily to Spirit and God to help us to help her. Thanks for you positive and uplifting messages. Have a wonderful day. Xx
Love this !!! Who Is large and in charge ! There is an affirmation I have been saying that goes like this… “Everything that is divinely mine… and already given to me by God — my health my wealth my love and my perfect self expression Is on its way to me amd here now under grace and in a perfect way ! Imagine my surprise when Grace showed up as Jennifer Grace… As I am now taking her creative insight journey coaching program And having awesome Positive transformation in my life — Opportunities are abundant And My purpose in this life is being fulfilled ! It is very important to say this affirmation Followed by under grace and in a perfect way… That assures that things will work out in God’s timing and under God’s will However if we get in our own will and push for things to happen before their time and they happen outside of God’s grace… Colette The first time I ever called into your radio show I was the first caller you picked and you confirmed for me a couple of years ago… That I would definitely be a healer in this world… It has taken some time for me to heal my life… But I am delighted for God knows the way of my path… Namaste and love , Marlee
Colette, your dog looks so happy in that picture 🙂
Alexandra xo
Another great message to let go of my desires because Spirit knows what’s best and will guide me to it. If it’s not mine then it isn’t for me (a recent lesson learned when a colleague got the job that I wanted because he’s permanent staff and I’m a contractor so it was deemed there was too much red tape in the way for me to get it). I shall trust that Spirit has something better in mind and I shall stay open to what it is.
You make my Monday’s awesome. It’s great to have you back. I was thrilled to see you in my inbox this morning!!
Waiting for IT to happen! I can’t quite put my finger on IT! IT is just out of my reach! IT will never happen!
When we think like this, we are thinking in negative terms.
IT doesn’t happen that way——There MUST BE A LOOSELY WOVEN satchel that can be stretched and become the different shapes IT takes. Whether we carry the handle and swoop our net thru the air or just hold it open, it becomes filled. In that there IT lies. IT may look different than what you had designed—-but there IT sits. Waiting to be tinkered with. Waiting to be involved. Waiting to be embraced!
So what is IT? IT IS ALL OF LIFE—-and calming yourself to the rhythmic breath of IT! Then the discovery that you already have IT comes to light because Spir-IT HOLDS THE CANDLE!
BANG-A-RANG!!!!!!!! Think happy thoughts!
LOVE THIS Diana 😉
Wonderful timing, your post today. I struggle with ‘your will not mine’, especially when I’m stuck and needing things to change. Needing me to change and I’m not. Inspired to meditate and just be with it all after reading this. Thank you.
Thank You Collette!! I do know “who is Large and IN Charge in MY life….now” LOL
I can relate. The other evening I saw, for the first time in many years, fireflys dancing around my lawn. How wonderful and magical it felt. My belly actually bubbled with, you know the feeling, joy. This was my gift for the day. Now, I am one to want what I want and haven’t any patience (oh boy, has this cost me dearly), so I am being smacked on the head with, “Who is Large and in Charge.” A reminder for me; this controlling, impulsive being. I am slowing down on the mental chatter and waiting to see what comes through.
Thanks, Sparkly Colette for your message and the big guy who brought up the reminder!
Dear Colette!
This was a wonderful and magical story. Your friend is dearly going to miss, and you she. We have so much good work to do while living this life but, it’s sad that we have to leave wonderful companionship like this behind. Later in life it’s more challenging to find such good friends wherever we call home. But, I’m sure you’ll cast a spell of Light on everyone who crosses your path with being back in Canada. I love the stories involving God’s signs.
Speaking of sychronistic events. Today is the day I write the chapter on Seeing the Signs for my ebook. So your blog is a beautiful segue.
Thank you for sharing.
Best,
Kory
Colette;
You couldn’t have chosen a more apt topic. I have been wrestling with this situation this past week. I applied for a position with an interior design showroom. A former colleague and friend used to be the Showroom Manager. I sent my resume directly to the current manager and asked that she forward the
application to the right person. After about two weeks; I connected again to ask her if she knew when the interviews were scheduled to begin. Her reply was that the HR contact were call me to have a phone conversation. This person did call; left a message and asked that I let her know when it would be a good time to speak. I did respond and as it was Canada Day in mid-week; I suggested a day and then E-mailed her to confirm if that would work?
No reply. I then left a voice mail and suggested that we wait until Monday and asked if she could send an E-mail so we could synchronize a time that worked for both of us. This is a very well-established company and the position comes with a significant salary increase from what I received in my last role. It could be a pretty high stress doorway as I would be serving interior designers, architects, and contractors for both residential and commercial projects. The product is wallpaper. I feel that I could do well and there are no weekends, or evenings which is what I wanted. The truth is that I am pretty tense, and terrified as I haven’t worked or made a commitment for a while. I was advised to now let go and WAIT. If I keep calling; or E-mailing it will appear that I am desperate. And as my bank account is not growing; I want to move forward and reestablish myself; but I have been pursuing an entrepreneurial path for a while, and I am finding it difficult to LET GO!!!! I know about the divine guidance, and timing and that “Whatever is meant for you will not pass by you”. I know that all will be revealed in due time; either the door will open or it won’t. I sensed some mixed vibrations, some sadness that my “freedom” path will be changing gears and I will be part of a larger story, and I didn’t make any money with a creative project that coincidentally was designing a collection of wallpaper which I attempted to market myself. I feel calmer today; and have released the outcome to the hands of the higher order. But I still feel compelled to pick up the phone and try to orchestrate the time for the meeting. HANDS OFF!!! TRUSTING that all is well and is unfolding as it needs to. If the H.R person didn’t respond immediately; it doesn’t mean that she won’t. It is difficult to be in that place between no longer and not yet. I want to return to receiving fair exchange for the value and skills that I can offer. I am worthy of a higher salary than I once was paid. I’m sure that my resume would not have been handed to the H.R contact if I wasn’t qualified to be invited to participate in the selection process. The competition is pretty fierce with college graduates who might be paid much less. No guarantee. I’ll be 60 this month which means that I bring other strengths that college aged candidates don’t have. There is a fine line between being anxious/nervous, and calm and non-emotional. It comes through the telephone. An H.R person is trained to detect by observing the clues. That is what is making me so nervous!!!
That is the long/short of it. I know that everything can be shifted in a moment, and that doors can and do open in a magical
way when the outcome is serving the highest and best of all concerned. So grateful for being able to share this, and for the timing of this topic.
Any feedback or prayers from the group would be appreciated.
breathe.. stop thinking so much… breathe , meditate, walk .. TRUST
Great post Colette!
I’m living one of those directional changes right now! and learning about you and using the Oracle cards has played a significant role moving to and through this.
I am a portrait painter and my work is inspired. please view at http://www.budreau.ca
I was growing, experimenting in the masters methods and securing commissions and my work has been in a New York show. In the last year, everything stalled. The painting ended with a final spurt into abstraction! It had a clear connection to what I was next going to do. The painting stopped cold. I even tried to paint out of guilt, pressure – oh my – no good!
I grew anxious for a time because painting is my career and income. I wasn’t making a huge income, but we were doing fine. I booked another solo show and just didn’t want to do it! What’s going on?
I saw your Messages from Spirit TV show, then I went to your website and began using the online oracle cards. I started to see the time was coming for me to write the book that had long been spoken of in many medium readings over the years.
Shifting gears in creative pursuits has not been easy, because starting from scratch to build an audience for the book about my spiritual life has been like coming out of the closet. http://www.mairibudreau.com & mairibooks.worpdress.com
The guidance I received through the oracle cards has kept me steady and true. And your connection to Hay House brought Hay House to me in the form of the online writers course and the bank of inspired authors. I feel as though I found my tribe!
So ahead of me, as I write the book, is an opportunity to submit a proposal to Hay House without an agent and I am grateful for that.
I can’t say how this book will unfold, leave that up to spirit! But the book will be published, if not by Hay House, then by Balboa. It is strange to feel no pull to easel these last few months. I trust painting will return.
I thank you with all my being for the role the sharing of your gifts has played in my life.
Love you Colette, Mairi
congrats in discovering this new lane Mairi! Your art is spectacular by the way.. loved it..;)
Thank you for checking me out!!!
beautiful work.. especial like that um Axel of yours .. oh my
I painted a few images of him – can see here – enjoy!
http://www.budreau.ca/new-york-gallery.html
All though I believe I am the author of my own story of life and how I live, ultimately I also believe my purpose is all up to my Divine Timing with Creator. The surrender to Creators Divine Timing has never been easy for me as a Divine Spark of God, I like thinking I am in the command chair of my life…LOL…So surrendering to being Creators service rep here on Planet Earth now brings me brings a peacefulness to whatever wildness goes on in my life now… In the last few months I see alot of 1, 11, 111, 1111…and alot of white feathers floating down from above…love to all…xo
Thank you Colette for your post today, it hit home with me!
I am currently working on 12 steps for Nar-Anon and am stuck on … Step 1!! Wow, I thought I was going to breeze through these first 3 steps and I was stopped in my tracks a few days ago. I thought I let go of being large & in charge, however, I think I was talking the talk and not walking the walk!
After visiting my son yesterday at his sober living community, I made the long drive home and started with the ‘what if’s’…what if he doesn’t complete the program, what if he relapses, what if wants to come home and starts using…
I had a big AHA moment on that long drive home…we aren’t guaranteed the next moment, or the next day. Just for today, he is clean & sober. Just for today, he is healthy & working his program. Just for today, he is committed to completing his program and living a sober life.
So, just for today, I need to let go of my need to control the moves, trust and realize I am not Large & In Charge, my higher power, Spirit is. Whew, it’s nice to hand off that burden, just for today 🙂
admitted we were powerless and that our lives had become unmanageable.. leads to Came to believe a power greater than myself could restore me to sanity.. yep that HP is large and in charge.. but we don’t get there till we see ourselves clearly xoxo Bravo you sister 😉
Wow!… this certainly hit the mark for me Colette!
After a very transformative period in my life, I am ready to realign to a life path of helping others through mediumship full-time. Although I know my heart is fully open to this inspiring change and that I have been blessed with this ability, I still feel like I’m standing on the edge of a big cliff and that the next step is a Doozie (i.e. big step, not small fluffy pooch LOL!).
Then yesterday while doing a reading for a friend, each message I received from her loved one in Spirit was followed by an image of, you guessed it… a big Dragonfly. Although this didn’t make any sense for her, I just knew it must have a synchronistic meaning for me. Sure enough, this morning once I saw that your post was all about surrendering to Divine will, I realized loud and clear that this was yet another confirmation that I am indeed ready to take this step with confidence and absolute trust in Spirit.
I also had to chuckle when I saw your caption, “Who’s Large and In Charge?”. Being a pretty big guy myself, my wife lighthearted suggested just the other day that I could call myself the “Extra Large Medium”! Still, knowing that only God is in charge and that I don’t want to be confused with a pizza special, I’ll just stick with my wonderfully boring and popular (aka. common) name!
Thanks for everything you do Colette, you are truly a Divine gift helping the rest of us on our journeys!
Michael
love it.. my husband joked the other day about my motorcycle mystic show since I am a shrimp to him.. that I’m a “small medium at large”
love this week’s forecast. you look cute with your new haircut.
You are always spot on as i always say. thank you!
Thanks for your Wisdom.
In your video, you mentioned you are 56. I am like what? I was guessing early 40’s. You look amazing!
57 in 2 weeks 😉
Thank you Colette for such an amazing, informative newsletter each week-love receiving it! I loved the addition of The Adventures of a Motorcycle Mystic! Excited that you will be adding this to the newsletter as living in Australia I can’t see you in person. You would love Australia, so when are you coming to visit us..please? Have a wonderful week. Blessings from Christine
I really want to! SO happy you like it!
Hi Colette
Reading this brought my “Who’s large and in Charge”…I was in a job that was eliminated and being that I wasn’t quite ready to retire, I had put it out to the Universe what I wanted, where I wanted and when I wanted…my God had other plans… when I was down to 2 weeks left of my old job I rec’d a phone call for a job offer where the department moved to a new location. When things are right everything flows and along the way you’re tested to see if what you want and given is still what you want…when I said yes to both, things happened so fast I was almost breathless with it all happening so quickly! I am happier in my new job and new location than I’ve been in a long time…when we put it out to the Universe we need to step back and let it happen the way the “Who’s in Charge” has it for us.
I’m so happy to have met you and lucky enough to have a random reading from you!
Thanks for letting me share
Jane
thanx for joining the conversation!! xoxoxox
Dearest Colette – You can’t even imagine how timely this is! I had been reading all weekend about surrendering to divine will, and had just finished a meditation/prayer to start doing just that for so many things in my life right now (which is not easy for me) and decided to check my emails!
I have to admit it is such a feeling of relief to know that I don’t have to be controlling every little detail all the time, and at the same time feels like I’m being kind of “lazy” not having to do anything big. I’m going to take that leap of faith, and I feel sure that I will get there. I love reading all your messages, and am looking forward to having you here in Canada!
Thanks so much for what you do – bringing light into the world! Thanks for the reminder of keeping my inner circle in good shape & knowing who is large & in charge. We all just want to be happy & live a good life.
You won’t believe this!!!! Last night I had a dream and inside the house where I was; there was a flying insect with beautiful iridescent wings.
I looked with “awe and wonder”. Then excitedly said “a dragonfly”!!!! Then another one joined it. These were not the usual sized specimens;
but they had these enormous wings. Could be a sign? Loved your husbands’ comment “small medium at large”.
Thank you for your feedback, I’m breathing again!!!
XOXO
Hi Sparly Colette and Tribe!
I’ve posted before about moving to Alaska 16 yrs. ago with no job and no place to live because I listened to Spirit and followed (longer story but that’s the short version!). Before moving a friend told me she had a dream about me having my own business, very successful and busy. I thought ‘OK’ even though I had never considered owning a business. Well a couple of years later I did open a business, a craft supply store since I knew a lot about being crafty 🙂 It was only open for 18 months and I never made a penny but was happy and blessed to break even when I closed because a large craft supply chain store came in town. I still never felt like that store was ‘the reason’ I came to Alaska. Over the next couple of years I got introduced to energy work. I’m a nurse and it’s available in our hospital for patients from volunteers. When I started studying this amazing work I ‘knew’ this was why I was here, Spirit led me to meet the right people at the right time under the right circumstances. My mind and heart are so wide open in ways I never would have imagined. I also used to very much be a control freak!!! And worry about everything!!! Since I’ve been studying all this energy work (so many types available), reading great authors like you Colette, practicing meditation along with prayer and just learning to BE…Spirit has opened so many doors, most I didn’t even know were there. Now my ‘business’ is an energy healing practice I’m going to do full time when I retire (I do a little now but am still working full time and also still studying) and I ‘know’ one day I’m going to teach one of these modalities. I just have to sometimes remind myself it’s the timing of the Universe/Spirit and not my time when and how everything comes together. But now I know to take deep breaths, be grateful daily, set intention, pray, meditate, do my part and let Spirit do his/her part and just BE.
Now when I think back sometimes to how I used to be or see / hear someone else trying to be ‘in control’ I just laugh to myself!!
Love, Light and Peace to All
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wonderful story thanks so much for sharing !!
Talk about “a secret stinky thinking bender …” I was beside myself because my landlord accidentally cut the internet wire while trimming branches before I got a chance to see your blog and the energy forecast for this week! After a round of “huffing, and puffing, and not being able to blow anyone’s house down,” I finally decided to just hand it all over – your blog, my unfinished blog, and everything else – to Large and In Charge and let things flow naturally. Turns out the world did not end, my head did not explode (I got that from Michael Neal) and today everything was back to normal. Plus, I had the time to catch up on my reading.
Colette,
I have to admit that I’m feeling kind of bad; it’s a feeling like that while you were away on tour I was left in charge of your home and I forgot to water your favorite plant or I broke your favorite coffee mug and don’t know how to tell you. I know that it is a figment of my imagination but I can’t help it. Actually I’ve been feeling a lot lately; I’ve been having vivid memories of events. These memories are so strong that they almost hurt. I’m not sure if it’s the memory that hurts or my reaction to it because it’s almost like I’m reliving it and I didn’t “get it right” the first time. I also have been remembering “coming in” to this life. It happened when I was using Google Earth; I don’t know if you have used Google Earth but the program loads and gives you a view of the earth from space. When you put in a street address it zooms you from a height of several hundred miles above the earth down to the street level of the address. Watching it on the computer screen makes your stomach turn a bit. I watched it over and over again and began remembering going further, down and into my mother’s womb. I don’t know why I’m having these memories but I know that they are happening for a reason and have been trying to figure out the meaning.
But I digress; in the blog this week’s topic talks about “who’s large and in charge” and letting Spirit “drive the bus” when you’re trying to get to your destination in life. I have written many things about having faith and the cledons that I receive but lately my faith has been tested. I think I have mentioned getting selected for a new job, a job that after close to filling out 100 applications this is the only offer I received. I figured that I was meant to go on this specific path. Along the way there has been delays in reporting to the job; first they tell me not to make any arrangements to transfer locations until I hear from them, then they want me there in two weeks! Finally, for reasons I won’t go into here, my report date is on hold until further notice. This is aggravating since I’ll be moving out of state and it’s going to be difficult picking up and moving at a moment’s notice at my own expense given I have been a full time college student over the past 4 years.
I also have been dealing with reconciling an event from my past. I think I may have mentioned it before but I’ll go over it again. A few years back I was helping out a “friend” who was in trouble as we were together pursuing a business venture. He was facing incarceration after falling behind on child support. Feeling charitable and hopeful for the venture I helped him out and paid his back child support. He assured me that he would pay me back no matter how long it takes, but I haven’t heard from him in a year and he had previously he had talked to me about a new venture. In the past few weeks I did a search online and found out that the other guys that he had me talking to had been federally indicted and convicted of defrauding others. I also learned that my friend doesn’t have a clean track record when dealing with others. All being said I sold my home and am out close to $100,000 US, all because I put my faith and trust in someone. I have been trying to recover my money for close to 15 years and have been hopeful, but I realize that I probably won’t see any of my money. My biggest concern is that if he does this to someone else and I didn’t warn people about him then I don’t know if I could live with that. I also have been having issues with trust since I found this out; trust in others, trust in myself, and trust in Spirit. I realize that it is the past, a life lesson with a very steep tuition, but it’s been tough looking at individuals and putting my trust in them for anything. I’ve relived all of those moment where I wish I had made a better decision. I don’t want to be a bitter person and be constantly paranoid of individuals but it’s been difficult to forgive all of those involved, including myself, so that I may move on with my life and this new opportunity. Perhaps that is why it’s been delayed, so that I may address these issues. I pulled oracle cards from the Enchanted Map deck and drew the Wizard of Awareness (reversed), Slow and Steady, and Field of Dreams (reversed). I believe these are telling me that I need to calm my mind and meditate, be patient, and let Spirit take the wheel for a while, but it’s been difficult due to the breach of trust.
Then I heard your radio show on Hayhouse today. I caught the last half of it because I forgot that it was on (again). It is the first show that I’ve heard since you’ve been back from your tour so I have been dreading telling you about the “broken cup”; the cup being my faith and the principles that you have taught ever since I’ve read your books and listened to your shows. I know what is valid and what I need to do to get out of this fog but I’ve lost trust in the process. I think I heard the last two callers, one looking for a life partner to help her start a business in helping others finding their life partners (I have to admit I had the “RCA dog look” when you both were describing how you were looking for your life partners, wondering if that is really how women choose the men they go after and how many times I had been in some woman’s “crosshairs”). You told her to essentially to have faith and let Spirit give her what is best for her. The second caller was having issues with the apartment she had purchased and the seller being less than candid with the condition of the infrastructure; you told her to move past this and “fix” her new home that she seemed to love so much. I heard your little one in the background seeming to bark in agreement to everything that you said. You approached the show with so much joy and cheerfulness that I had to smile; even though you were talking to others I felt that you were addressing my current situation. After the show was over I felt better, but I still felt I had to tell you about your broken cup. I know that you may think it’s silly but I felt I had to tell you.
My Drill Instructor gave us a similar lesson while I was in training; he gave the class a penny. It was a large English penny so it was unique and not easily replaced if it was lost. We had to shine it and keep it on our person and produce it on command for inspection and it had to be taken care of, shiny and clean, else we would be in trouble. One day the class lost our penny and after an exhaustive search we had to own up to our failure. We told the Drill Instructor that we had failed in our mission and had lost our penny. We had looked everywhere for it but couldn’t find it; we were ashamed and devastated! To our surprise we weren’t punished for losing it. He told us that it was simply a penny to him and worth just as much, but the fact that it was worth so much more to us that was important. We received another penny to care for and graduated without losing it, passing it on to the next class.
Whether it “losing your penny” or “breaking your cup” I felt it was important for me to tell you. Although my faith has been broken I want to get it back; I want to be able to have faith in people and be comfortable helping those who really need it. In looking for ways to regain my faith and trust I found a local chapter of the Unity movement. I don’t know if you or anyone else know about it but I plan to investigate. Hopefully I will be able to tell you soon that I have righted my ship and am happily on my way; that I am able to let go and trust that Spirit will guide me to what is for my greatest good. 🙂
your story is a teaching tool for us all… keep sharing.. and keep the faith.. nothing is silly .. xooxox
This was a wonderful reminder for me Collette , that there is something much larger than my little self that is in control. Love it!
Hope you have a wonderful Magical Birthday week. x M
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