I had been procrastinating and percolating a dream for a very, very long time—21 years, to be exact. My whole life was always about music, and, to be honest, making, writing, and singing it was real medicine for me.
After a very long time, I eventually had two albums of music on the EMI Music label (now Universal Music), but a music career was not for me. I honestly couldn’t handle the business. Once my age came out, it was fast and furious: the way the press talked about me, how I was treated (although I have worked with some incredible people), and the fact that I was told directly that I was already “too old” when my first album came out at the ripe old age of 40.
Truth be told, my sobriety was my priority, and I saw that a music career at that time in my life threatened that. I had to walk away. For a time, I considered it all a failure.
That all said, my intuitive career took off without any ambition on my part. So many synchronicities showed me the path that was right for me, and I will say I have felt extraordinarily fulfilled by it all.
If you’re reading this, you already know all the projects I have been blessed to bring to life, from all my Oracle Card decks, courses, community, books, and art. I am so incredibly grateful. During all this time, I made peace with my music, no longer seeing the failure, settling on the gifts and the grace.
Then the itch to return to music started a few years ago. I knew I had never let it go. It was haunting me! The spirit of it needed to express itself through me without all the agendas, unmet expectations, and career ambitions, and just be alive as it is. I always express myself more fully through songwriting.
So, the Universe hooked me up!
I met the Koren Brothers a couple of years ago and knew they were the partners I was looking for, but as soon as I said yes, I found a zillion excuses and essentially ran away! I was “too busy” etc. I had the worst anxiety about it all. HA!
After I couldn’t keep putting it off, I flew to California feeling so not ready. NOT ready at ALL! So afraid! I had a full-blown anxiety attack in the hotel. I got on my knees, prayed to the spirit of the music, surrendered to my Higher Power, decided not to care how it went, got empty, and the next day showed up at the studio.
In four days, we wrote and recorded five songs.
I felt that fear. I faced those voices. I mean, if I was too old in 2000, how about 26 years later? What did the Universe have in store for me if I stepped in?
It was the most cathartic, fulfilling, outrageous few days ever. I am not a crier, but did I CRY! The music was always there, waiting for me.
Here’s the point I am making. I have no idea where this will lead! The doing of it gave me a sense of freedom I have not felt since I was a little kid on my bike doing wheelies in the church parking lot.
So, if you’re dreaming of something that you have been putting off, just do it. Don’t wait for the fear to leave! Feel it, face it, and do it anyway. Be willing to fall on your face. Life is short, and your inspiration is a gift.
Here is a short clip of one of the songs. 😉 The first five songs will be released in a few weeks and available for sale on my website. 😉
P.S. NO AI fakery-machine making was used in the generation or making of this music. NONE. Zip. Nada.
